Black Beauty’s Revenge

            My heart raced when York came to my head at the front of the carriage to tighten the bearing rein. Each time it happened it was almost more than I could bear. My neck and back screamed in agony as he forced my head higher and higher. I tried to focus on memories of my younger days, happily running in the fields with the other colts.

            My mother would often tell me that I was well bred, and I should always do my duty with no biting or kicking. I didn’t want to bite or kick York anyway because it was my lady who made him do this. He had tried to explain to her that it was too hard on the horses, but my lady insisted on riding in style as she called it.

            My new carriage partner, Max, was stoic as usual when York went to his head and cranked it up as well. After my friend, the red mare, Ginger, had fought kicking and rearing when York tried to raise her head to unnatural heights, she was replaced by Max. Max was solid black like me, so my lady was happier to have matching carriage horses at any rate.

            I tried to greet Max, but I was struggling to breathe, so I just emitted a pitiful grunt. He didn’t respond at all. I took it as no insult though since he had been subjected to the bearing rein for several months now, so I was sure it had taken its toll on him.

            My lady was taking longer than usual to approach the carriage as she stood at the top of the steps of the great house barking commands at the staff. Apparently, there was to be a great celebration later that evening. Max and I had no other recourse than to stand quietly as our chests heaved with each struggle to take in a breath. I could hear York grumbling, saying things like, heartless woman, monster, and the like. Max remained silent. After what seemed like an interminable amount of time, my lady approached the carriage. That was no relief for Max and me however, as we would now have to canter whilst struggling to breathe. At least, it meant we were closer to a relief from our agony and a return to our stalls though.

            That evening, after a hearty helping of mash and a rubdown by York, I dozed quietly in my stall. I was awakened by a gentleman I had never before seen. He opened my stall door and though his lips didn’t move, he spoke to me. I heard him in my head. I became frightened since this was a new occurrence for me. I started to raise my front legs into a full rear when he placed his hand on the side of my neck. I immediately felt calm, dropping my front hooves gently back to the earth.

            “Follow me,” the gentleman said in my head.

            “Where are we going?” I asked, but followed him anyway. It wasn’t just that I had always been taught to be obedient, but somehow, I trusted this tall, handsome, stranger.

            “We’re going to a party.”

            I followed him as he led me to the great house. It was ablaze in bright light. Candles and lanterns lit up the porch and entire house. It was a warm summer evening, so all the windows and doors were open.

            He led me to the side of the house. He turned and faced me and placed his hands on either side of my face. He whispered something in another language, one that I had never heard before. I felt great energy surge through my body. Instantly, all my aches and pains were gone. And there was something else; I felt powerful, but light as a feather at the same time.

            The gentleman transformed right before my eyes into a black horse. It was Max, my old friend. “You are one of us now, Beauty. We are called Nicor. In ancient times we took the form of dragons when we shifted, but dragons don’t blend in well with humans, so we decided to mimic our cousins to the north, the Kelpies. They have thrived for multiple millennia because they blended in so well.”

            Max transformed back into a human. “Wait here. York and my lady will pay for what they did to you.”

            “No, not York. He argued with my lady. It pained him to hurt me, Ginger, all of us.”

            Human Max paused. “Very well, as you wish.”

            “What will you do?” I called out into the night because Max was gone. I didn’t have to wait long though. My lady was laughing as Max held her waist and guided her to where I stood. Max held her because she stumbled from time to time but laughed when she did. I had never seen her in this state before.

            “Beauty is here to take you for a ride, my lady,” said Max supporting her as she looked at me.

            “Why, he’s wearing no tack, not even a halter.”

            “He’s a gentle beast, my lady.” Max lifted her onto my back. She was still laughing.

            When Max transformed into a horse, her laughter stopped. She tried to slide off me, but she was stuck fast because of the magic. Max galloped away and I followed. Our pounding hooves were like a crescendo keeping time with the screams of my lady.

            I dived into the depths of the lake right behind Max. My lady’s mouth was still gaping as she sank to the depths of the lake, but her screams were heard no more.

            I followed Max deeper into the lake, eager to meet my new family. We were no longer corporeal as our spirit forms flowed beneath the waters. One day soon I would return to the stable and free my friends, Ginger and Merrylegs.

Sinners-A Review

Sinners is representative of what I truly love about horror. It explores the lives of the characters who live in a time of great inequality. It takes place in Mississippi in the 1930s. It was a time when only a select few could experience true freedom.

The movie harkens back to the days of a horror tale depicting creatures who frighten us to the depths of our soul but also focusing on the lives of the people experiencing not only a supernatural horror, but the quiet, enduring horror of their daily existence.

These kinds of stories exhibit angst along with hope. In the presence of monsters, heroism and bravery are displayed by people who had given up on fighting the metaphorical monsters in their ordinary lives.

For me, the overarching theme is about freedom. At first small bits of freedom, the characters just trying to establish a place that they can call their own. The freedom to love the one you want to love, regardless of the standards of society. The freedom to be oneself and express that in creativity. Amongst the townspeople there is only a small and powerful group that seem to have real freedom, for everyone else, it is a goal, a dream.

I discussed this movie over lunch with my close friend, and she believes the overarching theme is about the lie of Christianity as it has been forced upon cultures who previously practiced paganism. She pointed out that even the ancient vampire talks about how conversion was forced on his people, but how despite the suffering that was caused by that conversion, he still feels comfort upon hearing the prayers. Christianity was forced on these cultures and used to keep them in line. She went on to say that the movie is called Sinners because everyone is a sinner.

Freedom from all of this is found by many of the characters in this movie, but in profoundly different ways. The movie has many layers, and I highly recommend it. I will be watching it many times!

Horror Writing and Anxiety

Anxiety is something that I’ve struggled with for years. I was recently told that I’m a fatalist. I had always considered myself “half a stoic”. Half, because a stoic imagines the worst-case scenario and then relaxes. I imagine worst case scenario and then my mind is stuck there in a repeating loop. So, when my friend said I was a fatalist, I looked it up and discovered that absolutely does better describe my condition.

I wasn’t always this way. Over the years, I’ve survived many traumatic situations, some physical and some psychological. I don’t want to talk about that here. Maybe some other time.

As of late, my anxiety has worsened. I didn’t know why at first. I’ve heard that anxiety worsens with age and especially with women, so I thought maybe that’s it. But I really didn’t like that explanation since it indicates that the condition is out of my control.

I recently commented on a blog post entitled, “Is it Downhill After 50(+) for Women in Horror?” written by Stephanie Ellis. As a result of that, I have now been included amongst a group of women horror writers over 50 on BlueSky and Discord.

(The rest of this essay can be read at The Horror Tree.)

Tales of the Gothic-Compiled by Christopher Stagg-Book Review

Terrific collection of gothic horror tales!

Click on the link below for my full review:

Epeolatry Book Review: Tales of the Gothic, ed. Christopher Stagg

Here’s a link for the book on Amazon too:

Ink Vine by Elizabeth Broadbent-Book Review

I was drawn to this story just by reading the synopsis and I was not disappointed. There is a dark fantasy element to this story, but dare I say it, it has a literary bent to it as well.

Click on the link below for my full review on The Horror Tree.

Epeolatry Book Review: Ink Vine by Elizabeth Broadbent – The Horror Tree

Here’s a link on Amazon for the book too:

Family History by C.C. Winchester

My story, “Family History”, is on page 57! Check it out and all the other stories, poems, etc. in this free horror ezine!

We’re Not Ourselves Today-Book Review

Loved this anthology filled with wonderful stories of pulp horror from the beautiful and creative duo of Jill Girardi and Lydia Prime!

Here is the link to my full review at The Horror Tree:

Epeolatry Book Review: We’re Not Ourselves Today by Jill Girardi and Lydia Prime

Here’s a link to Amazon for the book too!

HWA Veterans in Horror Post-Yours Truly

So I forgot to post this in November. It was super cool being mentioned on the HWA website! I hope I have more works to talk about before the next one. I’m plugging away at it. 🙂

Click here for the entire blog post and have a great week!

Hot Iron and Cold Blood-Book Review

This is my second review for The Horror Tree. My first review was not my best writing, so I read some articles on writing book reviews sent to me by my HWA mentor, Catherine Jordan, and I feel this one is a a bit better. I hope to steadily improve my writing as I continue this journey.

This is a terrific anthology with a mixture of the old west and classic horror. I highly recommend it and here is a link to my full review at The Horror Tree:

Epeolatry Book Review: Hot Iron and Cold Blood, An Anthology of the Weird West, ed. Patrick R. McDonough – The Horror Tree

Here is a link to Amazon for the book too!

Future Book Reviewer for Horror Tree

Thanks to my HWA mentor, Catherine Jordan, I will soon be writing book reviews for Horror Tree! Wizard Witch Warlock is my current read and destined to by my first review. I’m going at it a bit slowly though because I’m working 50 plus hour weeks at the moment. This is due to so many retail pharmacists leaving the industry because of unacceptable conditions throughout this business. Read about CVS/Walgreens strikes here.

Pharmacist in my area aren’t currently striking, but I fully support my pharmacy brothers and sisters. My company is currently in the process of hiring, so hopefully by early November, I’ll get my first review completed and start writing full steam ahead again.

I’m excited to be a reviewer for Horror Tree and hope to fulfill this position with the best of my ability!

Happy Halloween month everyone!